I would like to make people aware I have been dealing with harassment on several platforms now for awhile. This is unacceptable. I have health issues which are affected by stress, PTSD, and some people are aware of this yet chose to continue to try to hurt me. Some are people I rejected, people who don’t respect my boundaries, and/or people who can’t handle losing at video games. At some point I thought I would end up having a mental breakdown. I lost sleep, cried, and have been dealing with this feeling very alone. I still cry but I don’t try to let others break me.
At some point, I couldn’t even comment on YouTube without some fake account bothering me. “Get help” one said when I posted about how much I liked an artists song. Some of the replies made no sense in context to what I was saying. This made me incredibly uneasy. I stopped speaking for a while.
I was told at times what people said about me behind my back. Making fun of my clothes for example because apparently I’m not privileged enough to afford the latest designer closet. I know. I’ve known. Please stop. Enough damage has been done.
If I posted anything advocating against abuse especially on twitter, fake accounts would pop up with a clear intention to upset me. I ended up deleting my account after years of torment gone unchecked. If I had posted links to bring awareness to women especially being abused/murdered I had repetitive comments trying to frame me as weird. As if my interest in cases where justice wasn’t or couldn’t be served was odd. People tried to manipulate how others saw me repeatedly. It started to seem like the same people or person. Statistically speaking usually it is. Some of my insights were published in articles by the way. I was trying to do good in this world. Why would anyone object to that? What good comes out of silencing someone with those intentions?
At some point, my Facebook was hacked by someone who did not like me. I am now going on years without talking to family overseas because of this. This has made me extremely uncomfortable and I am fearful to go on the platform.
In gaming, I was harassed for ten months by people in a certain gaming community. Called ugly, stupid, and yelled at uncomfortably while I played. Someone also had accused me of cheating I found out and even started reaching out to people who followed me to tell them to unfollow me. Eventually I suffered a suspected ddos which fried my console I believe. I clipped people throwing games, spawning me in ceilings/basements and they were obviously afraid I’d expose this.
I guess what I’m getting at here is you have no idea what people are going through in real life. I will never view the Internet as safe anymore. I will never be able to trust anyone off the bat even more. I have had horrific things done to me in real life and I felt for a bit there I could interact online but I don’t feel that way anymore. If anyone thinks this type of bullying/online mobbing is acceptable please do not follow me. If you are not here to support me please unfollow. If you are viewing this page out of maliciousness please leave. And I am asking anyone who has ever done anything to me they wouldn’t like done to them to please move on. As I said this has had an impact on my health, PTSD, and I would greatly appreciate it if I could be left to create my path without unnecessary obstacles. Please be kinder to others online and respect boundaries. Thank you.